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Thursday, August 6, 2015

Perspective

Today at MoPS, I was crocheting while listening to our guest speaker. Some girls at my table asked what I was making and I showed them a picture on my phone of my piles of hexagons.


One of my friends looked at me with one of those "you are so amazing" looks on her faces and expressed awe at the fact that I was capable of doing such a thing. But here's some perspective:

In my eyes, I'm only a novice crocheter. I know about 3 stitches and still have to google them if I go too long without doing any. Without some serious upskilling, I could not make some of the items that make me gasp in that same awe.

And this woman who complimented me? 5 kids, 2 of them not yet in school, spotless house, studying for a bachelors degree and always looks put together and acts cool, calm and collected. I'm certain that's not how she'd describe herself, but it's all about perspective, isn't it?

Saturday, August 1, 2015

August 1

It's August 1. Later this month I turn 35. There's no more "early 30s" for me.
This year is well and truly flying by, so in an effort to focus my time a little better, I'm planning to do a few things this month:
Take a 'proper' photo every day. I have a very nice camera and I love to use it, but most of the photos I take are on my phone. It's great for taking quick snapshots, but I want to get back in the habit of creating beautiful images.
Spend some time creating every day. In addition to the photo. I am actually doing this because it was suggested as a group activity by someone who is part of an online community that I have been connected to for a reeeaaally long time (like, most of this century). I do feel like I've hit a slump creatively, as the rest of life has zapped all my tme and energy. The only time I seem to make progress is when there's a deadline or I spend a day at quilt guild. But I have a couple of little projects on the go that I have pulled out to work on when I can only find 15 minutes in the day to do something.
Celebrate my birthday all month long. I'm going to use my birthday as an excuse to do things I've been planning to do for myself, to organise a girls night out and to catch up with all those people I've been meaning to spend quality time with.

And maybe doing those things will give me things to blog about, but I'm not going to force myself to do so on any particular schedule.

Monday, January 12, 2015

Timely reminders

nostalgia
[no-stal-juh, -jee-uh, nuh-]

noun
1.
a wistful desire to return in thought or in fact to a former time in one's life, to one's home or homeland, or to one's family and friends; a sentimental yearning for the happiness of a former place or time.

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(Photo is one of the oldest I could find while away from home - almost 2 years, which is over half that small child's lifetime)

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I think (hope) that it's normal to question some decisions, especially major ones. Maybe that was the path I'm meant to follow. Maybe I shouldn't have ended that relationship so definitely. Maybe that situation would have turned around and worked out for the better if I'd just stuck it out. Maybe I should have done that sooner/instead/never. And so on. Remembering the best bits and missing them dearly. Thinking the bad bits maybe weren't that bad.

And then something happens that makes me certain that I can't go back, at least not anytime soon. Nothing big. A comment here, a small event there. Not so much an affirmation that I made the right decision, but that there are things on the other path that I just can't deal with right now.

It's that whole wearing rose-tinted glasses while looking at the grass on the other side of the space-time continuum problem. The way we look back on things/events/people is never a true or full picture of what actually was and I am thankful for timely reminders of that. Instead I will look forward, where things are even less clear, but I can have a greater influence over the outcome.


Wednesday, January 7, 2015

2015

Wow, what a crazy ride the last couple of years have been. Rather than even attempt to catch anyone up on that right now, I thought maybe I'd start with a little explanation of why I'm back and where I'm at right now. And the easiest way I can think of is by sharing my word of the year for 2015.

I don't even remember when or how I first came across the idea of a word of the year, but basically instead of making New Years resolutions, you pick a word to focus on throughout the year. The word I have chosen is

Create

This may seem like an obvious word for me, if you know me or have even just read pretty much anything I've ever posted online. But I've mostly chosen it because I feel like I've lost my way.

In 2015 I want to:

Create more with my hands, to make making a priority
Create stronger relationships with the people who are important to me
Create a plan for what to do with myself when both my girls are in school full time in just over a years time

In essence, I plan to focus on creating the life I want.

Monday, October 1, 2012

Birthday crown

Three and a bit years ago, when we were planning the move back to Australia from the UK and looking to celebrate Lily's 1st birthday within days of arriving, my sister-in-law Jac asked if there was anything she could do to help. I told her that I had really wanted to make Lil a birthday crown, but that I didn't have the time, so she agreed to make one. Thus began the tradition of Aunty Jac making my girls a birthday crown each year for their birthdays. She has made 5 so far (4 for Lil, 1 for Violet) and we still have them all - some put away for when the girls are older, others mixed in with the rest of the dress-ups.

Tomorrow, Jac's daughter, my only niece Charlotte, turns 1, so I finally got to make a birthday crown myself. The party was a teddy bears picnic and was held today (since it was a public holiday in NSW) in a local park. Since I haven't actually asked my brother and sister-in-law about posting photos of their daughter on the internet, you just get a picture of the crown for now. Unfortunately, it is not as cute as on a baby girl's head and this isn't the best photo I've ever taken, but I obviously no longer have it on hand to take another one.


It is made from wool-blend felt and embroidery cotton and came together quite quickly and easily. The paw is a homage to Charley Bear since that is what Charlotte gets called and was the primary inspiration for the party theme. I chose purple because, well, I like purple, but also because it was one of the colours I knew Jac was using in the decorations. The green on the lower and left edge is 'Charlotte' embroidered. The only issue that I would change if I had to re-make was that I only used a single layer of felt for the band around her head and with it being pulled on and off it stretched a little. But I am super happy with it. Now my other siblings and in-laws need to start having kids so I can make more cute crowns :)